Didn't believe me, did you?

I said it would be a few months. I'm really, really bad at updating this. Like, super bad. I don't know why I keep it going. So far, everything's still going good with the new little monster. C is ecstatic and can't wait to be a big sister, and K is starting to get into the "hey we're really having a baby" mode.

We still don't know if this little thing is a boy or a girl. Not for lack of trying, though. Weather has been nuts this winter, and my ultrasound was re-scheduled due to our last big snow storm. My OB wants to send me to a specialist, because of the heart problems that run through my family, so that tends to delay things out even further for the ultrasound. Hopefully, though, we'll find out on Wednesday. They're calling for more snow, though, so we'll see.

We've decided on a name, regardless of sex. K wants to name the baby after his dad, and his dad has a somewhat unisex name, so it will work out for us. At least that means it was easier to decide on a name this time than it was with C. I'm pretty sure we didn't have a name until May, and she was born in early June. So, from this point forward, #2 will be referred to as "R" (or mini-monster/munchkin).

I'm excited to be over halfway through. So far, work is going well. It's very labor-intensive, though, and there's a lot of bending/stretching, so we'll see how much further I make it before I need to cut back on what I'm doing. At this point, I'm playing it by belly and doing what my body allows me to do. R likes to hang out fairly low, though. I can see that giving me issues with the walking and bending.

Not much else to add in here. I'll try to update somewhat sooner than almost 5 months later next time, but don't get too worried if you don't hear from me again until after the newest member of our family is in my arms.

It's about damn time...

So, after 3 months of living with my in-laws, it looks like the house will finally. FINALLY. be finished. We are set to move our odds and ends, the dogs, and K's grandfather over on Sunday. My fingers are crossed so damn hard that it doesn't get pushed back again. As much as I love my in-laws, you can really only spend so much time under the same roof with them. I think 3 months qualifies as more than enough time.

It was our anniversary on the 19th. Married for a year, and happy we made it. There were definitely times he had me ready to strangle him. I'm sure he felt the same way. But we made it through, and had a nice start to year number two. Munchkin 2.0 will be here the end of June! Yup!

This was our last cycle before we went in for testing. We're excited, and planning on telling everyone over Christmas. So, that's all the current news. Not much else to share right now. I'll be back in a few months. ;)

Limbo

In many, many ways. Today started CD1 of cycle... 9? Month 14-15. It sucks. I'm slowly creeping into "this isn't happening for us" mode. We really don't have the resources to pursue testing, now that I have a new insurance with a higher deductible, etc etc etc. It sucks. It really, really sucks. So many people announcing pregnancies, so many people pregnant at my employer, and I'm smiling, when inside I just want to cry.

 I don't think K really realizes how long we've been trying, nor how much it bothers me. To him, it just hasn't happened yet, but it will. "When it's supposed to." Well, I'm sorry, but it should have happened already, in my opinion. I know there are women out there who've been trying longer. I know there are women out there who aren't going to have any children at all. I love my daughter deeply, and am blessed to have her. It doesn't make the pain of trying each cycle, and failing, any less.

I have my annual in about two weeks (go figure, it was scheduled for today and my period shows). I'll be talking to my doctor, and going from there to see what we will do. Maybe I'll call insurance and find out how much we're looking at. I just don't know. We're in limbo where baby #2 is concerned. I have a crib broken down in a closet, a swing Keith doesn't wan to get rid of, a bedding set that I fell in love with and had to have. But no baby to use it. Ugh.

To make matters more fun, we're back living with K's family for a few months. We're still in the process of fixing up his grandparents' home, and we're so close to being done. We're just still not. I hope it will only be a few more weeks. Like, a couple. But who knows anymore? The house is almost completely set up, except for trash and odds and ends. We just need to finish the bathrooms. Anymore, though, I just don't give a crap. I'm burned out. I'm pretty sure I'm getting depressed. All I want to do is sit down somewhere, in a corner, and cry. It sucks, and I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to.

Oh well. Off to work I go, I guess.

Supposedly holding off

So, as of CD1, we're supposed to be on hold for a cycle or two. Or three, depending on WTF my body decides to do. I got a new job, that I start July 8th, and FMLA and all that crap says I should wait until I've been there for a year to go on maternity leave. We'll probably just wing it, and because we shouldn't get pregnant, luck has it that we will.

We're also in the process of finishing up getting the new house together to move. Looks like we'll be moving the last weekend in July. It's going to be a busy month for us, but we'll manage. We're almost done painting the house, and in a week or two, will be building a deck onto the back. We also need to redo the bathroom floor and put a new toilet in; that project will be getting started on Thursday.

C seems to be handling things so well, so far. I'm curious how she'll do once I switch to the new job, and how she'll handle the move. The house stuff shouldn't go too badly. She's used to being at the new house, and hanging out there. The job change might be a bit much for her, though.  It's a second shift position, so she'll have Daddy at night and Mommy during the day. It'll be like being a newborn all over again for her! Sort of.

So, as far as TTC. Like I said, we'll be "holding off" for a cycle or two. Come January, we'll switch insurance plans, then pursue testing if I'm still not pregnant. Hopefully, we won't need to go down that road. Neither of us really wants to; who does?

Oh, and because of the new job, I cancelled my doctor's appointment. For obvious reasons.

I Told You So

I told you I was a horrible blogger. Said it from the beginning. I didn't think it had been that long since I posted. Turned out, it's been almost 2 months. I'm still here, trucking along, trying to get knocked up with #2 by my husband. We hit the 1 year mark next month. Fun fun? No, not really.

Things have been hectic over the past couple of months. Started my latest cycle. Had a mini breakdown, knowing that I wouldn't have a chance at ovulation again before that one year mark. Flipped out on my husband because of the lack of sex we've had. I have an appointment for my annual next month, and will be talking to my doctor then, to see where we go from here. The hubby has agreed to a spermal analysis, to see if the issue is him or me, so I guess we'll start there.

As far as the regular, everyday life we live? Our "baby" will be 2 in two weeks. I can't figure out where the last two years have gone, that my baby is growing up so much. She jammed out on her piano today with her own rendition of "Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star." It was the cutest thing ever. I loved it.

We'll be getting ready to move in the new 2 months. August 1st, we'll be moving into my husband's grandparents' house. His grandmother passed away, unexpectedly, about a month ago. We'll be moving into the house, and helping to take care of his grandfather until he's ready to go to a home, or passes away. At some point, we'll be buying the house, just not sure when. We still have credit issues and such to take care of before we can be approved for a mortgage. It will be a long road ahead of us in that regard, but we shall see what happens.

In the mean time, I'll try to update more. Like I said before, I'm not promising much. I'm a horrible blogger.

Oops

So. I'm a horrible blogger. I think I may have stated that somewhere in one of my first posts. I wish I could say that things have been busy around here, but they haven't. I actually had plenty of free time last week to write (type?), but I just didn't take it.

Why free time? My husband and daughter both caught some nasty bug that I have (thankfully) been able to avoid so far. It resulted in nasty aches and pains with a fever for them. You would have thought that my husband was dying with how bad he reacted. He was in bed from Monday night until Friday morning, except for an hour or two he spent on the couch. I stayed home Tuesday to care for him and C, but he wanted me to come home Wednesday and Thursday to take care of him, too. What a wuss.

Other than that, nothing much has been going on around here. We got a new TV. Went from a 32" to a 46" and it looks great. The quality is amazing, and you would think it was a 3D TV with the way the clarity and depth is. So... that's about all that's been happening around here lately. I may update in a week, or I may not.

Oh, yeah, still not pregnant. Haven't even ovulated yet. I may, eventually. If my body decides to do what it's supposed to.

TGIF?

Well, kinda of not really. My house is a wreck. I really should try and clean tomorrow, but I don't want to. The hubby and I plan on doing a deep clean of the house in two weeks (I work every other weekend), so I will probably just wait until then.  

We have a birthday party to go to tomorrow for Keith's niece and nephew (they were born a few days apart) and I really don't want to go. His sister, for the most part, hates me, and her kids are spoiled brats who basically get to do whatever they want. Nope, not looking forward to it at all. Add in the fact that the left side of my face is breaking out like crazy, and I'd really prefer to just hide in my house all weekend.

On the TTC end of things - I'm starting down the long end of my cycle and wondering, out of curiosity, if going back on birth control would help shorten my cycles when I go back off it. When I was on Implanon, I didn't have a period at all, and I feel like maybe that messed up my body and its cycles, like my body forgot that it is supposed to adjust hormones throughout my cycle.  Or it could be that I've put on weight since I had DD and started sitting at a desk all day.

The one-year mark resetting wouldn't bother me, as I already planned on continuing trying to pregnant on my own with Keith, rather than visiting an RE for testing past the one year mark. I'm kind of torn about what to do. My body regulated fairly quickly off the pill the last time I was on it; I was pregnant with C within 3 months, even if it was an accident. It may be worth discussing with my doctor, though. Maybe? I don't know...